Cantoya Goodness

we were in church on sun & pastor anne was telling an awesome story. last sun, out of nowhere, she prophesied that there was a woman who was thinking about getting married & god said, “no. he’s not the one.” anne was saying that it was weird b/c it just popped in her head & out her mouth (usually how prophecy works but whatever ).

anywho, she got a letter from a woman. she said that she was dating a nice guy & he had proposed. she didn’t answer him at the time but said that she would on sun after church. once she heard what god said through anne, she broke down & cried. she ran out & cried in her car for the rest of the service. why? he wasn’t a christian & so she was unsure of her answer to him.

she broke off the engagement w/ him. in her letter, she said there was a lot of crying, not just b/c of breaking up, but also b/c she realized that god loved her so much that he singled her out to tell her what she needed to hear.

i cried when i heard this. being a married woman, i know the love i have for caleb (& vice versa). when you’re dating & in love, even breathing seems impossible w/o your loved one there (as sappy as it sounds, you know it’s true ). it hit me hard that god loves us MORE than that. god loves us so much that he’s more than willing to be blunt to shake us out of something or a relationship that we don’t belong in.

then i got to thinking…

how many times has god shaken me out of an area & i didn’t know why? to take it a step further, how many times has he done that & i got upset at him or i blamed him? i pushed away the ONE PERSON who genuinely loved me more than the situation i was in. i would get angry at him when he was trying to save me from heartache.

it kinda reminds me of when i have to correct chloe on something. she doesn’t see why i won’t let her stick crayons in the electricial outlet. she just thinks i’m not being fair. it’s out of my love for her that i’m willing to accept her crying, blaming, and sometimes a fit so she doesn’t get hurt. when she says “yes, mommy” & sacrifices her needs to obey me, that’s when i’m the most pleased. she trusts that i know what’s best for her. just like god knows what’s best for us.

kinda crazy how much he loves us, huh? <3

’nuff said.

is today’s date anything important outside of the olympics starting up? idk why but it feels like i was supposed to do something important today (it’s not bills b/c i took care of that). hmmm…i’ll think of it later.

i cleaned up chloe’s pool today & after dinner, all 3 of us went outside & had a blast. i’m sure i’ll post more videos of it, but for now, this is my fave.

i love how chloe’s little swimmers work a little too well. i swear, her slide was soaked but the absorbant “diaper” took care of that, & thus, the squeaky sound when she was sliding. then she’s like, “i’m stuck!” ha!

also, check out my cute new haircut! i have bangs now! *shock*

edit: she’s wearing a tee & not her cute swimsuit b/c she’s too big for it!

so today (i think?) marks our one year anniversary for not using credit cards anymore! woo hoo! i seriously loathe them. you know in “fight club” at the end when they’re blowing up the credit card company buildings?

yeah, i’m all for it!

mainly, anything w/ the word “activ” in it. seriously. i was flipping through the coupons & it was nuts how many items have the whole “active bacteria” in it to “aid digestion.” items like “tums” & pepcid ac” also run the gamut. here’s a thought: don’t be a glutton, cut back on the fast food, & eat your veggies! and voila! your digestion will be just fine. shoot, just drink water. if you stop drinking soda all day & just switch to water, that should help out, y’know?

i was thinking about how this whole “active bacteria” & crap wasn’t around when my grandma was a kid (side note: ALL yogurt has active bacteria, btw) let alone when i was a kid. it’s just kinda sad to me how fat americans have gotten & how they want a quick pill or something to fix it, rather than go to the root of the problem. *sigh* like i said, just something i noticed.

i found this pic & thought it was just too true:

disclaimer: until i figure out how to embed this video correctly, click on the following link for ultimate cuteness. be forewarned: it is the cutest thing you have ever seen. if for some reason the video doesn’t play in another window, just right-click it & “save link as” to enjoy it!

chloe dancing to stevie ray vaughn’s “pride & joy” last week.

omg.

go see it.

now.

so today’s caleb’s & my 6th anniversary. crazy, huh?

i was thinking about how much we’ve gone through in the past 6 yrs. there’s the obvious “big” items, i.e. graduating from college, moving 1300 miles, having chloe, etc. but there’s also the “smaller” items that are just as important. we’ve grown closer as a couple & we’re comfortable around each other. not to say that we weren’t to begin w/, but it’s just one of those things that gets better & grows w/ time. just like mold. rofl! jk.

also, our own individual lives have grown & changed for the better. i’m not the same woman i was 6 yrs ago (& thank god for it ). i’m not getting shit-faced a few times a week & then wondering why i can’t seem to get my life together. i’m down to once a wk. jk

i think we’ve done an excellent job shifting & adjusting to whatever life threw at us. sure, you could look at some of the situations we’ve been in or are currently in & be like, “really, sarah? really?” but to me, we’ve learned something in every state we’ve been in & we’ve done our best to not repeat some of the more hellish areas of life. in short, i’m proud of our past & present, & i’m absolutely thrilled to see what’s ahead.

for 6 yrs, the traditional gift to give each other is candy or iron (the modern version is wood). who the crap came up w/ these lame-ass gifts? we’re gonna go see “dark knight” at the imax tonight. maybe i’ll buy him some skittles or something.

well, i need to get myself pulled together & get chloe’s stuff together. obviously, we’re getting probably her fave babysitter (jen) to watch her so we can have a night out alone. *shock* i know, right? how sad is it that in a yr, this will be the 3rd movie i’ve seen in a theatre (harry potter last anniversary, SatC, & now dark knight)? oh well.